Bitter heart

Asking about the question of the heart, no one knows, even when it's my own heart, sometimes I can't even answer that type of question. I guess, I left the questions unanswered. At the moment, what I want is "not to be in a relationship" I'm happy being single, as majority of my housemates are single ladies and I have been one since the last break off. But I do have people that I like "crush". At the decent time I want to focus on my studies, well if we are meant to be so we are going to be together right. I have a great life, family and friends who loves me a lot, I have a lot of support from everyone around me so what more that I want, and I'm very greatful .. Alhamdulillah. I really believe in takdir yang Allah tentukan, more the less, I'm to young. Still want to be free and have great moments with my friends. I learn a lot from the pass few years, and it is almost a year since the black history of mine have been left. I'm a new person, the girl that will not be same like my old days. I'm tough, happy, cheerful, strong and a wise thinker. I do the things that I think gives the best for myself. People will call me cruel as they can see that I do everything for my own interest, but I guess it's how I role to protect myself from getting hurt. And proudly speaking, It's hard for me to put down a tear now days. That's an achievement. Everything about the heart I'll refer to my role model which is my mum. That superwomen that I wish I can be one day, from advise to another advise in the end the final decision will be on me. It's like that time when we want to answer a question in the finals (objective paper) all the answers a right, but we want the most suitable answer. Keeping silent may be the right thing to do, but as for me I'm aggressive, If I like it I will say it and if I don't I'll just ignore and put up my middle finger up. haha (pardon me for the behavior) same goes to people, telling the truth is much better than putting a lie in someones face. I'm doing preparation to be in the law world. If you want to be good as a lawyer, you must be fierce, must be focus, and strong. I'm learning that not only form the law school as well from my personal experience. We can say that, all three anak pakcik Rosli is masculin, if you crack us, you'll be damn good. 

Ps/: an independent women, a strong women doesn't show her weakness in front of everyone, just those the special ones.